Love/Hate relationship

That basically explains my relationship with working out. I HATE dragging myself to the gym and the thought of working out but once I get there and get going, I LOVE it! I feel so good afterwards but it's just getting to the gym. It took me almost 2 hours to decide if I was going and after much arguing with the husband, I finally went. I had to apologize after I got back from the gym because I know he was just doing what I told him to do. I told him to expect a lot more yelling when it comes to getting me to the gym. I'm lucky he can deal with my attitude and lovely insults that I throw out there when I really don't want to go. (I know, I'm a lovely wife sometimes). He knows what is best for me and I love him for it.

I finally started up my running again. After last week, and how much pain I was in, I was really scared to run again but surprisingly, I feel great! What a difference the right sneaker makes. I love my ASICS! I would recommend them to anyone who wants to run.

These are the ones I got . . .

They are super comfy and give me a lot of support. And I love purple! There are so many to choose from so I just tried a bunch on and ran in place. I got lucky and chose the right pair. These are the things that get me excited about running.... awesome sneakers :) It's the little things that make me happy. 

Now I really have to make my appointment to get my pedicure. I lost 10 lbs. and I deserve my reward! I'm not going to gip myself because this has been hard work and I deserve the treats that I have promised myself. Now I just need to find the time in between working, sleeping, taking care of my lovely 15 month old and getting to the gym. Where does the time go?!

New name

I decided to change the name of my blog for many different reasons. First off, I think just reading about me dieting and exercising is very boring. Because honestly all I have to write about is how hungry I am most of the time. I do enjoy writing about the actual weight loss each week but during the week, I don't have much to talk about. Don't get me wrong, the whole point of this thing is to keep me going with my weight loss. This blog just adds a little fun to it. Now if only I would let more than 5 people read it...

Anyway... I really want this blog to be about not only my weight loss journey but also being about a working mom who is just trying to enjoy the sweet things in life. (I know, it's corny.) Well we will just have to see where it takes us.

Yesterday was a bad day for me. I had a nice day off from work and was planning on going to the gym when the hubby got home but instead I was in a terrible mood and just did not feel like doing anything! I think it was more that I just didn't feel like going to the gym. I did take Maddy out for a walk and to the playground and she loved it. I just did not want to go to the gym!! It's been more than a week now since I've been there. I need to snap out of this mood. Since I'm working tonight but I don't have to work tomorrow night, I was thinking of just going to the gym after work since I will already be there. Well I'm going to pack up all the stuff I need for the gym and we will see what tomorrow morning brings.

10 lbs. down!

Yesterday was weigh in day. New weight.... 227 lbs.

I am down 11.4 lbs!! Wow! Well, first I'm super excited that I have finally reached my first 10 lb. goal and I get to treat myself! I am losing some of my fire though. These past 2 days I stopped tracking my points but today I'm trying to get myself motivated again. Last week, after I started running, my body like revolted. I was in so much pain with my knees and legs that I gave myself a week break. (A little too long). I'm heading back to the gym today. I'm trying not to lose my momentum but it's very hard not to.

I did find a 5k to run in. It's May 6th and is for the Susan G. Koman foundation so I'm super excited. I just have to sign up for it. I was hoping to find a run that is at the Jersey Shore but I haven't found one yet. Plus I need to see if this running is going to happen. I hope I do better this week with the running and my body can handle it. It has a lot of weight to carry right now and my knees are weak. I did buy running sneakers so I hope that helps too. I need to just keep pushing forward... I know it will be worth it!

couch to 5k

I officially started my training for a 5k yesterday and my legs are killing me!! I thought I would just try running with the sneakers that I have but that was a bad idea. Last night at work, I could barely walk. My right knee was killing me and my legs just hurt! I know it probably was because it was the first time running but I definitely think my sneakers made me feel worse. I was so proud of myself for being able to run but the after affects... uuuuugh!

Anyway, I started training with the program couch to 5k in 9 weeks.

http://www.coolrunning.com/engine/2/2_3/181.shtml

Basically the first week you just power walk for 5 minutes then alternate jogging and walking for 15 more minutes. And I was able to do it! I am starting out in a better place than I thought. I just have to get new sneakers and maybe try running outside rather than on the treadmill. I really want to do this and I'm going to be really disappointed if my body can't handle it. I have bad knees to begin with but I didn't think they were that bad! I am super pumped for this though and I can't wait to see how far I can push myself. Now I just need to find a running partner.

Weigh in #3

New weight is 230.6!

Down 1.8 lbs. I would like to round that up to 2 lbs :)

I know healthy weight loss is to lose 1-2 lbs. a week but damn this is slow. I hopefully will only have one more week until I meet my first 10 lb. loss. I really want my manicure/pedicure! I need to have better control on the weekends though. They have definitely been my downfall. The problem is that we're pretty much always going out somewhere and it's a lot harder to stay within my points for the day. I'm always using my weekly points. This past Friday we went to a Sweet 16 and there was no way to keep track of my points. I had a few appetizers but I have no idea how many points they were. Plus I went there hungry so that was a mistake to begin with. I guess I just have to realize that everyday is going to be a challenge and if it wasn't hard then it wouldn't be worth it.

Random thoughts

I met with the trainer last night. She just showed me some circuit work outs to do. Then I meet with her again in 6-8 wks. I'm hoping when I meet  her again, I will be down at least 20 lbs. I wish I could pay for a trainer but unfortunately, I have not found that money tree yet. Every time I go to the gym though, I see her there and she is always encouraging me. I need that encouragement. It's like one person cares that I'm there. As silly as that sounds.

My husband washed my ipod in the laundry yesterday. Hopefully I can just exchange it and get a new one. I need my music! So instead of going to the gym today, I have to get a new ipod. I'm working tonight so I don't have much time to do both. I actually am upset that I can't get to the gym today. That's a big step for me, right? I actually enjoy going to the gym. I want to start checking out the classes but I have to get over my embarressment. I feel silly in those classes. But I think I would really enjoy them. I'm thinking Saturday I might go to one.

I have to start my training for the 5k too. I don't know why I keep stalling especially since I announced it to everyone. Now I really have to do it!

I'm hungry today.

Week #2 Weigh in

Well even after my bad weekend I still had a good weigh in.

New weight . . . 232.4

Down another 2 lbs! Well that is encouraging and I know I can keep doing this. And just 4 more lbs until I get my first treat to myself!

Food is my enemy

These last two weeks I have learned a very important thing... food is seriously my enemy. I never knew how much I depended on food for happiness. But when you're at a party and they serve good food, don't you always say "Wow, that was a great party. The food they served was awesome and I'm stuffed!!" Well this weekend I met some enemies.

First enemy:

Any and all kinds of DIP!! Uuuuugh. I came across some great dips these past two days and it was VERY hard to stop eating. I always went in thinking, ok.. I'm going to have this much. But then left saying... Crap... I ate like double that. I know I can't stay away from gatherings but how do I stay away from the dips!?!

Second enemy:

Bread!!! If I don't see it then I don't eat it but it was in my face this weekend and I ate it.... and ate it. I actually tried to hide that I was eating the delicious, buttery biscuit because I was embarrassed that I couldn't control myself. Yes... I could have eaten 2 or 3 of them but I still didn't have enough will power to not eat one of them. I went way over my points these past two days and used up all my weekly points, activity points and probably then some. I stopped counting after that damn biscuit.

Well like a good friend told me this weekend... No one loses weight without cheating at least once! And I'm sure everyone has their bad day ..... or days. I know this is going to be hard but I never knew how addicted I was to food. And what terrible self control I have. Well I'm working on it. I just hope I can wake up tomorrow not feeling so defeated. Especially since it's weigh in day.

On a more productive note... I did get to the gym 3 times this week and had some pretty good work outs. I never knew what a difference having some good music to listen to makes. It kept my momentum up during my work outs and my intensity. It's going to be the little things that get me through this. Like a good play list.

It will be worth it

Today was a really good day for me. First time since I've started this. I stuck to my points and I didn't feel very hungry today. I really didn't feel hungry today. I think I'm getting more used to the diet and what foods to eat so that I'm not hungry all the time. I also went for my first session with the trainer today. That went well too. She just tested my flexibility, strength and endurance. I'm not as bad as some but I am at my worse condition that I've ever been at. I'm really out of shape. I only tolerated 20 minutes on the elliptical and my knees and back were hurting. I know I have to start out slow but it's very frustrating. Not to use pregnancy as an excuse but it has really taken a toll on my body and then not doing anything for the last year, my body doesn't feel like it used to. I need to get my body back! I'm meeting with the trainer again next week and she's going to come up with a plan for me. At least that will give me some direction with my work outs and hopefully some motivation! I'm also going to start my training for the 5k in the spring. So with the combination of both work-out plans there can only be success....... right???

Well today was a good day and I hope tomorrow is a good day too.

Weigh-in Day!

Well today is the day! My first weigh-in. 

New weight.... 234.4! 

So I am down 4 lbs. 

I'm ready for another good week!